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New Habits: Breaking the Mind & Body

November 28, 2011

Hebrews 12:7 - Endure hardship as discipline...

Standing at my counter while I make dinner, sweat drips off the back of my hair and onto my neck. It's Monday night and I just finished a really hard BodyCombat class. On Thursday, I ran the Turkey Chase 10K in 56min with my friend, David (@dcborn61). On Saturday, Joshua & I ran a 4+mile hill run and on Sunday, we hiked Stony Brook Park (and by hiked, I mean, climbed a LOT of precarious stairs up to the top of a mountain so we could see the falls pictured here). My muscles ache, I really need a shower and I'm starving, but man, I feel incredible.

I'm inspired to do something.

Evernote reminded me that I had notes from last Sunday (thank you for the sync from my phone!) and after reading through them, I realized that this is something that is obviously on my heart. Pastor Todd (@swirlyfoot) gave a sermon at Church in Bethesda about the saints. He talked about the tough things they went through to become saints but they were never all talk. They had action behind their talk & endured hardship. The sermon was pointed at getting off our butts & doing something instead of just talking about it. Todd told us that each of us could be a saint in our own right if we stopped just formulating ideas and went out to put them into action.

My initial thoughts for this post were about formulating a plan for the next month to get off my butt and show myself what I'm made of physically. The verse above, Hebrews 12:7, is the beginning of a few verses (seriously, go read them) that talk about how God is our Father disciplines us for our own good and and how even when our earthly fathers have done the same, we've respected them. Being able to discipline ourselves to action allows us to correct our own paths.

MIND:
Based on what the Bible is saying here, I know I must discipline my thoughts, my words and my actions to make sure I am wholly good and holy for Him. If I can do that, I'll be wholly good to everyone around me. Being a Christian is so much more than just going to church on Sunday and praying over dinner. And although some of you may not agree with me, being a Christian isn't about just telling everyone that God will save them. Being a Christian is about being an upstanding member of your community in everything you do. It's about who you are when nobody is watching AND when everyone is watching. Finding myself standing here knowing that I'm a leader in my small community, I know it's time to correct my path.

I've always struggled with prayer and downtime. I've always had a hard time just quieting my mind. Running helps  me quiet my mind (we'll get to that next) but otherwise, I'm a million miles per hour in thought. Being able to refocus my thoughts will allow me to be a better Christian AND a generally better human to my community. Ever been around yogis? They're incredibly peaceful to everyone around them. Hmm... we'll see how this goes.
 
BODY:
This goes back to me sweating and feeling amazing yet painful after a few straight days of working out. I'm disciplining my body to do what I want it to and it's respecting me for it. For the last few years, I've been pushing myself to do more but then I fall into a comfortable pattern and end up working out only 3x a week.. maybe. This year, running has become something of an addiction for me but sometimes what I put in my body (fried food, alcohol, etc) doesn't allow me to have the drive to get up and run the next morning. While in this space, I always wonder (even though I know) why I can't break the barrier that shows me what I'm really capable of. In order for me to see results from this discipline of my body, I need to get off my butt and make it a reality.

If you repeat a behavior over and over, it becomes a habit.

My plan is to make these two behaviors good habits. Thanksgiving is now over and Christmas is on its way. These aren't insane plans for having a killer body or being a Christian saint, but they are simple actions that I want to become a part of my lifestyle, not just a phase.

4-WEEK NEW HABITS CHALLENGE:
MIND:
- commit to praying every morning & every evening
- commit to 15-min of quiet time for just reflection every day
- commit to being in bed by 11pm & waking up by 6am every day
- commit to tracking thoughts on paper daily

BODY:
- commit to 30-60min of exercise every day
- commit to eating & drinking only healthy
- commit to stretching every morning
- commit to tracking exercise on DailyMile.com daily

Now that I've written it down and said I'd do it, it's on. I'm ready... are you?

 

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1 Corinthians 9: 24-27. Do you not know that in a race all the runners run but only one receives the prize? So run that you may obtain it. 25 every athlete exercises self control in all things. They do it to receive a perishable wreath, but we are imperishable. 26 so I do not run aimlessly; I do not box as one beating the air 27 but I discipline my body and keep it under control, lest after preaching to others I myself should be disqualified.

Since the ultimate goal is to be like Christ I thought this passage was pretty relevant to what you're trying to accomplish. Keep up the good work and be faithful to our God. He is so good.
Posted by Joshua on 11/29/11 | Reply
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An Intentionally Happy Life

August 15, 2011

"Why don't I have ____?"      

                                                                  "Why can't I get ____?"
            "I'd be so much happier if ____?"

Ever catch yourself asking these questions of yourself? I finally quit... and guess who is happier than ever before? Me.

So many people think that if they had more, they would be better off. The grass is always greener. If you are single, you wonder what it's like to be married. If you're married, you wonder why you made that decision. If you don't have kids, you yearn for them. If you do have kids, you're happy to give them up for a night off. If you're in an unhappy job, you know you'd be happier working for yourself. If you work for yourself, you wish for the days of a steady paycheck. Greener... but is it?

At the beginning of this year, I set a goal of intentionality. I didn't do a New Year's resolution. No "I'll eat less and run more". No "I'll walk the dogs more." No "I'll take more time off." Just a goal of being intentional with everything I do because no one else was going to live my life better than me. 7.5 months later, I see the fruits of my intentional intentionality... and every day it's clearer.

No more worrying. When I set this goal, it was to put full faith that God had given me the tools and the strength to be a success. I finally started leaning on Him and with that I had to stop worrying about everything. Money, relationships, work, family, everyday details... Once I stopped, I was able to focus on what He really wanted for me - my best life. A life that was in place to help others accomplish and live their own.

I love my life. My friends, my family, my job, my coworkers, my clients, my dogs, my home, my office, my body, my goals, my everything. Nothing is perfect but man, I really love where I am a month from 31. I am happy, I am healthy, I'm in the best shape of my life, I'm a successful entrepreneur, I travel, I am full of faith... it's all coming together.

Being intentional about who is in my life, what I do with my days, and how I find peaceful rest each night knowing I'm living my best life is how I am able to just be happy.

Are you happy? How are you intentional about your life?

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Well said. Thank you for the kick in the pants. :-)
Posted by Janire on 08/29/11 | Reply
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Private Life

June 12, 2010

A local radio announcer had a 'positive tip of the day' a few weeks ago:  "Your private life says more about you than your public life." It really got me thinking about the things in my life that are private, things I would hate for others to find out about.

One of my dear friends, Rashmee, passed away suddenly recently. She was here, then she wasn't. Gone without warning. Her little light left this world and a mark on all of us left behind. She was such a darling young woman who gave so much to the people around her. Her life was marked by having so many people who loved her. When she died, I started thinking about everything she left behind unfinished or hidden. Did she have things she hoped no one would find? It wasn't her time to go. Did she have relationships, emails, pictures, things that she didn't expect anyone to ever see? I doubt it. She lived in a clean life with clean friends and a loving family. She had nothing to complete, just a lot of living to do.

My life has come under serious scrutiny by myself. Looking at every aspect of who I am, what I am, where I am, what I have, everything - has really made me stop and think about where I am going. If I died today, would people find things they didn't know about me? What would they think of me? Would their perception of me change?

God asks us as Christians to live our lives in accordance to His gospel - to walk as Christians in all aspects of our lives. Rules for Practical Christian Living is found in Ephesians 5.

Be careful how you walk, not as unwise men but as wise, making the most of your time, because the days are evil. So then do not be foolish, but understand what the will of the Lord is.

And do not get drunk with wine, for that is dissipation, but be filled with the Spirit, speaking to one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody with your heart to the Lord; always giving thanks for all things in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ to God, even the Father; and be subject to one another in the fear of Christ. - Ephesians 5:15-21

Being a Christian and walking in His light, without losing our inhibitions or who we are as true Christians, is all He asks. 'Do not get drunk with wine' is not just warning against drunkenness, it's telling us that when we get drunk we lose our discernment and act in ways we wouldn't if we weren't drunk. Excessive anything is not living the way He has asked us.

Walking on a straight and narrow path allows us to face the right direction, continuing along in the way we are supposed to and in every aspect of our lives. It doesn't just ask us to be public figures as Christians, but also in our private lives. Recently I've been hearing a Christian artist say that it's easy for us to confess our sins to God but it's not easy to tell others of our indiscretions. We should tell those around us about what we've done so we can have more desire to change our sinful ways.

Think about the skeletons in your closet, the things you want to get off your chest, the things you have hidden in drawers or boxes so no one finds them... all the things someone might find out if you died suddenly. Are you prepared to leave behind the memories of who you are and what you have? Think about it and start cleaning out your life. I'm cleaning mine out. As much as I am a Christian that doesn't mean I have nothing to hide. Why would I want people to know about the sinful person I am?

Thank you, my dear little Rashmee, for making things more clear in my life. Thank you, my heavenly Father, for listening to my sins and forgiving me for them. Thank you, my friends, for listening and supporting me through all of life's changes and decisions. Now it's time to make it happen.

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Melanie,
What you wrote is beautiful. It reflects growth and maturity. I hope others heed to your advice. I agree with your opening statement that one's private life speaks more of the person. If I leave suddenly, I hope folks remember me fondly with the love and kindness I showed them. I look forward to our friendship growing.
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Spiritual Journey: Prayer, Preoccupation & Provision

July 13, 2009
Devotions are something that have always made me groan. The thought of sitting down every day for 30 minutes and reading my Bible makes my brain hurt for some reason. I have protested for years since I felt like I had no time although I always had time to do things that weren't 'devotional'. Now that I'm getting older, I realized that I really needed to start reading my Bible and listening for God's voice. I found a book called Devotions for Women on the Go back in March and have been studying my way through it. It was written just for me since 5 minutes seems to be about all my attention span allows for. This book seems to have been written with the knowledge that I would need exactly what it said on the day that I read it. I'll admit, God is amazingly detail-oriented. I am shocked every time I open the book to see that the verses and the little story relate to whatever it is that I need that day. The last few days have been plainly shocking yet typical.

PRAYER: July 10 was about Praying to Win - praying for those who mistreat you, for the strength not to fall into temptation, not to make mistakes, for a wonderful future, to be strengthened, to share the gospel, to be worthy of your calling, to be generous, to have a clear conscience and to confess your sins among other things. As much as I try to sit and pray, the things that leave my mouth are usually "Lord, help me be the woman You want me to be. Give me strength and courage. Allow my business to grow." Mostly 'give me, help me, allow me, do this for me' stuff. Instead this devotional told me that I need to pray for others, pray for His help to keep me from doing things He's asked me not to, pray for His forgiveness and for the forgiveness of others, pray that I might be generous in my words, thoughts and gifts, pray that I might live up to His calling for me... There's an Addison Road song 'What Do I Know of Holy' that says:

I made You promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven
But I talked the whole time

This has always been a problem. I have always wanted to know what it felt like to really 'hear God'. My friend Michele hears things from Him all the time - clearly too - and I'm not sure I can ever say that I heard anything. It's not because He hasn't been speaking, it's just because I haven't been listening. Next time I sit down to pray, I need to just soak and quiet my mind so I can hear what He has to say. Give myself over to Him and receive His forgiveness. Pray to win.

PREOCCUPATION: July 11 spoke of Preparing for the Attack on us. Whenever we start putting all of our faith in God and giving ourselves over to His love, we are at our most vulnerable to attack. It spoke of starting a new business as one of the times this can happen which fits me extremely well. They talked about physical setbacks, technical setbacks, preoccupation and heaviness of heart as things that can be attacks on what we are striving for.

Preoccupation stuck out to me. My pastor had told me that it would be the best thing for me to take a year off from dating so I could focus on my business because the preoccupation will keep me from accomplishing my goals. Satan is an angel who got off track and his favorite tool is getting us off track with him. I know this to be very true in my life. If I have something to keep me preoccupied, I'll stay with that instead of doing the things I know will help me accomplish my goal.

The heaviness of heart has been something that has really been weighing on me for a few weeks. Normally I am a really glowing, happy, overwhelming person to others and I've had a lot of people ask me 'Is everything ok?' 'You sound sad...' lately. I haven't been able to figure out exactly what it is. I've been going through a lot lately and have been under an insane amount of stress (mostly self-induced) but in the past, I've been able to power through and get through it with a smile on my face. I feel emotionally, physically and spiritually exhausted lately. I know the causes of all of it and know that my 'praying to win' and keeping myself from preoccupation will help me find the glow again. God has the power to life the weight off, I just need to focus on that.

PROVISION: Today (July 13) spoke about Provision and Psalm 37:23-29. Verses 23 and 24 really stuck out to me with the worries I've been starting to feel lately about my business and hiring people. I know in my heart and in my head that I don't need to worry because God will take care of it but these verses really showed me that I need to stand firm in Him.

"If the Lord delights in a man's way,
he makes his steps firm;
though he stumble, he will not fall,
for the Lord upholds him with his hand."

This doesn't say that we will never stumble, even if we stand firm in the Lord but it says that we will not fall. This shows me that when I stand right with God and do as He has asked, He will take care of me and I can't fail. I am an overly ambitious person and always have a million things going on, my goal is to make each of those things a success. There's a great question that people seem to ask all the time "What would you do if you knew you couldn't fail?" With God, I can't fail.

While I'm running and training, I've been repeating Isaiah 40:31: "but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." I know that no matter what it is that I put my mind to, God will hold me up and keep me going. It doesn't say that I won't trip, stumble, or have to slow down but I will never grow wearing, faint or fall down. I cannot fail.

God is good. He is indeed. He knew me and my path before I was born. He knew I would hit bottom and rise up again. He knew it would take a few times for me to fail on my own for me to come crawling to Him asking for Him to help me back up. He's always been there and always will be. I just need to trust that I can hold His hand and keep moving forward and that He'll never let me down.
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The Beginning of My Journey

July 8, 2009
This journey of spiritual growth and self-awareness has been a bumpy one so far. I've moved off the path of the journey and gone away to find myself entangled in deception and pain and realized that I was not on the right path again. The right path is the path of Christ, the path that will save me from all of my worldly hindrances and give me a peaceful place to rest.

The first few days of this journey pulled me off on a side road and had me stall in my reaching for Christ. I went back to the things I swore off and chose to believe in those more than Christ and put them above Him. Why? Because I'm an addict. I've become so addicted to these things that IJustify Full couldn't stop thinking about how wonderful they could be and continue to forget how badly disfunctional they really are. Deception pulled me back out and the pain of that gave me the chance to walk away for the last and final time. I will not stall again. I will walk forward, even if it is slowly but I will not walk backward again.

This journey that I am on is one of faith, passion, pursuit and hunger. I am starving for the love that God so freely gives and not because He won't give it but because I find myself in unhealthy relationships and this stifles my relationship with God. I look for love in the wrong places, I seek favor and acceptance from the wrong people, I leave those who love me behind for those who can't possibly - and for what? A few seconds of joy. This joy that never lasts, never fills me up and always lets me down when it's over.

I look around me and see the beauty God gave us, the wealth of opportunity, the incredible happiness he has bestowed and I wonder why I keep pushing it all away for something that doesn't even accept the 'real me'. I know that I can be an incredibly strong Christian woman with a courageous heart and a mighty soul but I am weak to the prison that is my sin. I choose to do the things I know I shouldn't do in pursuit of something I shouldn't have. I want so badly to be loved that I forget God's love. Now that I am finally back on the path, limping a little but definitely on the path, I find myself pushing forward as if I'm in a race and I just want to glimpse the finish line but I know it's a thousand miles away. One foot in front of the other is all I can do at this point.

I woke up yesterday to the song 'Going Through the Motions' by Matthew West on the Christian Rock station and it's been with me since then - 2 full days of just repeating those words.

I don’t wanna go through the motions
I don’t wanna go one more day
Without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don’t wanna spend my whole life asking
What if I had given everything?
Instead of going through the motions

I honestly don't want to go through the motions anymore. I don't want to call myself a Christian and then find out that hell is really meeting the person you could have been. I want to be the person that others look at and say 'she's obviously figured it out'. My light has been out for the last few weeks and I want it back. I've been calling myself a Christian since I was a kid but not actually living it out. I'm sick of living a life of purity with other Christians and then going home to sin privately. I want to be a woman of God, His daughter. I want my light to come shining through in everything that I do.

God has blessed me so incredibly and this fast will allow me to really live out His plans for me without the distraction of men in my life. I was reading I Peter 3:8-12 during my devotions tonight and it really struck me that the relationships I have had were unGodly in more ways than I even thought, going against exactly what He's asked of me since He says:

8Finally, all of you, live in harmony with one another; be sympathetic, love as brothers, be compassionate and humble. 9Do not repay evil with evil or insult with insult, but with blessing, because to this you were called so that you may inherit a blessing. 10For,
"Whoever would love life
and see good days
must keep his tongue from evil
and his lips from deceitful speech.
11He must turn from evil and do good;
he must seek peace and pursue it.
12For the eyes of the Lord are on the righteous
and his ears are attentive to their prayer,
but the face of the Lord is against those who do evil."

I want to make sure to follow this to a T from now on. To give those who insult me blessings. To seek God's peace AND pursue it. Not just seek it but actually go AFTER it... run after it and really feel like I'm finding what He wants for me, not just what I want. I need to cure my addiction, cleanse my heart and my life and give myself the ability to find what it is that God has ready for me. This is just the beginning. Ready, set, pray!
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Preparation for Italian Adventure

May 23, 2009
My, how life has changed. One minute I'm plugging away 40 hours a week, trying to figure out what to do with my evenings and the next minute I'm working for myself 80+ hours a week and trying to figure out how to have a social life. Don't get me wrong, I am ridiculously happy about my present circumstances and busy with enough work that I had to hire an assistant (thanks @themamateresa). God has really taken everything that I've ever wanted and dreamed of and handed it to me on a silver platter - and then some. I can't be more pleased and more grateful for the things that are going on in my life. Happiness is really allowing God to direct your path.

Now I'm leaving in 3 days for a week-long Italian Adventure with Ms. Shelly-Belly AKA Michele. God's little girls are going to experience romance in Italy and feel the love from their Father on a whirlwind trip across the ocean. I have been working every day to get everything caught up so that next week is quiet and I have no work to think about while I'm away. A lot of odd things have been happening lately, along with some spiritually heavy issues but all-in-all, it's been an incredible ride these last 6 weeks. I am growing and changing and finding that God has it all taken care of before I can even think of what is coming next.

As I pack and get ready for this excursion, I need to stay focused and keep praying that God shows me what doors are open and which are closed. Praying that He will protect us and keep us from harm and allow us to see His full light. As a shining beacon of God's light already, I hope to meet new people, find peace in a new place and capture the attention of the One who has given me this passion for travel. I plan to blog while I'm away to make sure to keep memories of my trip abroad and to reflect on the things God has shown me.

I am almost ready. Just a few more days until I head off on this exciting new experience.
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